Genuine.

On this day of your life, Rivs, we believe God wants you to know…
… that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you’ve missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

Got this from Facebook, everyday they send this to you to remind you of God. Remarkably, the first message I received really hit me like BULL’S EYE.

This draft has already been here a couple of weeks ago. Since then I know words kept hunting me that I needed to patch it down and insist on realization.

But I know it was just ‘impatience’ that drove me to really jot down what I’m into right now.  Recently, I’ve been overwhelmed by my emotions as it attempted to overpower me. Confusion, frustration, sadness hit me in a bang like all the principles I’m holding to became formless. And as the man thinks and feels, it is being translated into his actions.

What’s the story? Sometimes, I tend to tug the rope in the situation wherein I get caught of to do or not to do. Wake me up I know, of course I know if it’s within the realm of morality, but going to freewill. God has given us the choice, an option to choose, if you follow His Words or not. But how would you know if it’s not right, like, Is it right” to talk to this person?” I admit that I haven’t read the Bible from cover to cover, not even finished reading New Testament, but if there’s a verse in the Bible that said it clearly please do message me. And so I remember this one advice, I read from a Pastor’s blog, Do NOT Overspiritualize Things. For some reason, I’m a victim of this disease among Christians.

“Lord, am I doing the right thing? Oh please tell me if it’s wrong, and I won’t do it again! Give me the Word that I need! Give me signs!”

This kind of attitude is good but occasionally, it go directly to the pit of legalism of Christianity. I do not know exactly the words from Oswald Chambers, but rephrasing it He said it something like, Christianity is not what you do to better your life, not to commit mistakes, but Christianity is what has Christ done for you. Remember you are paid with a price, and there’s nothing you can do to make God love you more.

Sometimes, I can’t help myself but listen to the whining of the pressure of this world. Undoubtedly, the search for Truth is nowhere to be found in media, in magazines, not in the internet. It can only be seen in God through His Words, His Holy Spirit.

I don’t want to live in a parody of pharisaism. I want to be controlled by the Holy Spirit, for He digs down the deepest and unsearchable things in your life. I know I am vulnerable, and I’m now thankful I am. I love this quote form C.S Lewis

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will certainly be wrung, and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket–safe, dark, motionless, airless–it will change. It will not become unbreakable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is HELL.”